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likeavierge) wrote2018-10-22 05:13 pm
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this hurts me
but it's best to just let her have it sink in for now. He gives her time, while his own stomach tightens and he almost feels like he's going to throw up. A ridiculous notion, given what he is, but guilt and regret are two things he's very good at playing over in his own head. ]
I... was not ready to see your reaction, honestly. [ He doesn't look away at the start, but after saying that he does. Answer enough of what he thinks in response to that question.
Whether or not she does, she should. ]
Though that may have been some of the concern as well. You probably should have. [ His hand drops away from hers, like he'd forgotten he was holding onto her to begin with. ]
good c:
but now, even if he looks away, even if he doesn't touch her, it feels like a bond is there—imperceptible, special. it's not every day she finds herself face to face with a living, breathing man who just so happens to be an embodiment of the force she fought against in life. and he was her adversary, but—
he has to know. she cried for his fallen men just as she did for france's. she lowered their eyelids to allow their corpses peace after death, she prayed for their safe passage into heaven.]
You shouldn't be afraid of me. [she crooks her head.] How can you say that I should have, when it would have served nothing? That you're here with me proves I was right to forgive you.
i see how it is :(
But it doesn't even occur to him that this is probably not a healthy way of living. It's all he's known for a long while--regret and guilt and heartbreak. They feel like something that never leaves.
But maybe, just maybe, he doesn't really know that at all. Not lately, anyway. Time has made him more cynical and bitter, it's hard to believe someone as perfect as she is could exist anymore.
It's why he laughs lowly under his breath now. ]
"Afraid of you" isn't how I'd put it. [ Then softly, under his breath: Fuck.
He wants to take this back and abort already. ]
:)
—Then, intimidated?
[you are not walking away from her, arthur!]
rip
Which is why he doesn't quite meet her eyes anymore, looking off behind her. To the side. Anywhere but at her face. ]
...Guilty, perhaps.
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[fruitlessly, jeanne tries to meet his gaze again but simply sighs when she's unsuccessful at getting him to look at her.]
Well, we all have reasons to feel guilt. It is a sign of our imperfections.
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Passing on the blame, so to speak. ]
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maybe he will be able to feel it.]
Some things do not change. I can assure you, my feelings have never been different about you. Please accept that. And act in a way that treasures the life you have been given.